如果，你还是你

一向来
我有过多少次失望
也表示着我曾有过多少次的期盼

无数的冬天过了，
对你来说，可能每次都是你的春天
我可没那么乐观
你不再是你，
而我，也不会是那个我


冬夜渐暖了
青春也随着都烟消云散
美丽的故事都有遗憾吗？
不，那只是习惯把爱当作喜欢
回忆里存在的呢？
则是你和我

我爱了你整整一个曾经~

只想说，
当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你吵
我想对你好，
你却从来都不知道
想你有时候真的成了我的惯例

当你说今天的烦恼
当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说
却害怕又说错
你知不知道？

离开你越来越遥远了
感情消失了
你的脚印也逐渐消逝了 

我忘了， 我爱过你多久
只知道， 那是我的一个曾经
曾经那么地想你
却也曾经那么地无奈
无奈你的什么呢？
无奈你~ 突然的离开 

Distance? or love?

Far or near,
it's even harder for me to determine,
for that,
u're far from me,
yet u are close by any ways...
i m finding it much more difficult for me to decide,
maybe i m clear that I care for you  now
maybe it isn't right for me to do anything at such stage?
wondering again and again,
yet i can't find the real answer..
the perfect answer that I always wanted....
Sometimes, I wish you would knw,
wish that u will find out someday,
but again, I hesitated after my wish,
I hope you wouldn't knw toooo....
It seldom went so right,
but seriously, I m still quite unsure about that,
It's just like,
I wanted a dream in my reality..
but this could be impossible right?

Someone pls wake me up,
or pls let me dream...
this two very very different thing..
How dream and reality differ?
dream can satisfy my wish,
but it always won't be as real as reality..
in other words,
reality can be just that cruel,
but it won't fail helping us to knw things better
rather than living on like what we expected in dreams....

Or could have someone stepped out and tell me what's the truth
even I can't figure it out..
especially with  blank feelings under this stupid white fan
it turns and turns, until my mind turns along with it too
Truthfully, I began to miss u once a while,
the feelings get strong,
and isit like this?
Though it is quite different from past experience,
yes it is,
cause it makes me tough to find it wrong


walls in front of me,
not other colours but white,
a bunch of papers in front of me,
u're right, finals are just around the corner..
I know I wouldn't score the best,
but I hope i can do it fair....
as long as I can achieve the score, that's it

finally,
just gonna emphasize,
Could someone give me the answer?
guess I needed it soon...
It's pretty hard for me..
even I spent a lot of time at it tooo..

getting nearer to the community,
getting nearer to many arising problems..
am I tough enuf?
nope, I ain't,
there's a lot of things that I need to learn,
still lots of things I m trying to counter..
example, even sometimes u try to be sincere..
people might see u as crap..and that's what I hated....
need to face pretentious person,
need to be sincere to me own feelings,
even need to ignore those who are annoying...
Guess I need someone to talk with..
especially when I m down =(
I wanna be as optimistic as u...
that's what I yearned...
within my little big world,
start fading away from my own sincerity....
again, I couln't resist to tell
I wanna live, with true colours of my own life~

Listening to song- breakeven(falling to pieces)
by The Script..
It's a nice song =D

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always u
and What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're okay
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces

要找自己最爱的，还不如找个适合你的

简单来说，
就是找个适合你的吧
往往都比你想去爱的人，更值得珍惜
适合你的人，会一直陪你走下去
而让你奋不顾身的人，
很有可能会让你累下去 =）