only u knw how suffering u are, and how painful it is

yes, today is just that simple,
only u know how suffering u are,
or  u can say that's how u knw urself better,
be sincere of what has happened with u,
be courageous enuf to face ur weaknesses...

only urself knw it deeply inside,
what are u thinking,
and how will u do,

according to different situation,
and....that's all..........
almost finished my biology assignment,
and I have been sleeping late for consecutive 2 days..
time for me to sleep early..=)

I hope bubbles won't break when they collide

There's always something which are meant to be..
and more importantly,
I wanna express the main point...
some of the things around us are fated....
cause u have to follow and accept ur faith...

just like the bubbles,

when they collide..

they will surely break...

and they break incredibly nice...

I get this idea when I stare at the bubbles..

the bubbles are attractive, seriously they are charming...

why would they always break when they collide..

and if they remain the same,

it would be beautiful,

but this is the nature.......

the awesome nature which we used to live in...

and it is just can't be changed...

Bubbles,

they are fragile...

they are not like us in life...

although they are colourful

they can't choose but to break..

but we can,

to gain whatever we want....

and to live whatever life u yearn for.....

be courageous to choose what u want...

and u won't regret...dude......

(specially for someone around me)

perhaps this example is not that suitable....

but i just wanna emphasize on that....

live ur life...cause it's urs.....

There are a lot of things,

only when it passed us, we used to be regretful....

and the regret in u,

can hardly be overcomed....

whether it is the passer by,

or it will mean a lot to u..

depends on how u r flexible and mature in ur mind....

again, talking about the bubbles....

i use them as my blog today..

because i feel they are beautiful..

and no other reasons...

it's just they are beautiful....

Looking through the window in my condo..

yes,

I finally found someone like me...

feeling the emptiness..

when u look at the cars on the road...

or when u listen to the noise of the city.....

even when u try to find someone interesting around ur eyesight...

there's always a space which is empty..

an empty space which belongs to urself....

whether how the emptiness fit inside u,

it all depends on...

what u have gone through...

and the sadness which always live...

inside ur deepest site of ur heart.....

No one will always be happy,

but only with sadness...

both of them weave to make ur life interesting..

and just that colourful...

like the bubbles before breaking..=)

enjoyyy...ur life.....

ur colourful life........

discrimination and pretentious

Being discriminative is quite scary..
especially when someone looks down at u..
u can't resist,
because u have ur weaknesses..
and sometimes,
u feel insulted because of that..


when u r looked down..
sometimes, 
u might not realize...
discrimination happens,
when there's difference in thoughts...
when there's difference in status,
or difference in potential, and even attitude...


a very obvious discrimination,
can be found easily in a person's eyes..
cause they have told everything 


pretentious,
is about how pretending the person is,
when he is encountering a situation...
People used to discriminate,
cause they never look into others' good things..
but when u are able to look at them,
u are better than those who discriminate...


Being pretentious,
is one of the thing i hate the most...
what is the use of being pretentious,
to achieve ur objective?
or to get someone to trust at u,
even u r trying to do something bad..
cause when u r sincere enough,
the pretentious crap on u should be taken off..
cause it never be useful,
when it comes to friendship........
truely.......
true friends are the ones that u should believe,
u should trust them..
and even put ur words on them..
cause they knw u well,
and they won't talk about u,
especially about ur bad things behind u...


there's something that i should approve when 
i saw one thing on facebook today..
real friends stab u from ur front
isn't it true..
if they don't care about u,
they won't even tell where ur weaknesses are...
and won't even laugh at u..

Fitting in the crowd, yet there's still loneliness

Today might be an important day for the jit sin band..
they are having a competition and.it seems important for them to win this..
so they advance into the national comp..
or what....
anything, i have to bless them here.....
they are having compett right now,
while I am away from penang, and I'm enclosed in this uni..
with stupid replacement classes..
and transportation problem..
but, i promise i will go for national compttt!!!..
i promise.......

thinking of being direct today..
as........being indirect sounds troublesome...
although it brings a lot of meaning if i write indirectly..

Kinda miss those days when I'm in high school.......
being with best friends and a lot of people,
being in the greatest society on earth..
when comptt goes on,
I m just feeling when I'm inside of it.
nervous and...insisting to stay calm...
is every thing that everyone needs...
and I have been thru it......
remembering those days when I 1st joined the band..
because of my friend, FM,
and because of everything,
I have been brought to the society..
growing up,
by taking all sort of experiences...
and that kind of spirit builds a spirit inside me,
in which those days are surely not forgotten forever...


esp when I was as black as charcoal......^^
the time will never turn back to me anymore..
once u walked..
wad u left is only footsteps
and memories.........
whether the footsteps will be blown away
or it will fade?..depends on how deep those footsteps u have left behind......
and how meaningful the memories are......


it's true..life passes so quickly...
as fast as a lightning?...
until u can't stop them.......
seriously,
if time can be stopped one day....
and u have ur last few hours..
wad will u do 1st?
wad will come into ur mind 1st?
who will come into ur mind then?
have u ever thought of that......
I have been thinking of that so seriously,
but it turned out with no answers...........
cause i can't even figure out them.........
indeed,     I COULDN'T
I COULDN'T....................


the sunset is beautiful,
but it could be forgotten,
but scenarios and picture in my mind,
although it's just important to me,
selfishly, they are just as beautiful as the sunset..........
as long as i stay...
i will keep them as mine.....                                        
but would u??


the sky is blue,
and so do my heart..
with a little of lonelinesssssssss
and a little of depression...... 

I had a chance, but equally i had no chance tooo~

There's a great thing about this,
having a chance, bt actually u don't have...
It's kinda strange to get this feeling,
especially when u seem to have the opportunity to be taken~

A great chance,
bt u might get a great disappointment,
just like throwing a dice,
u may have 2 different possibilities,
BIG,
or SMALL~
and it's just two,
it can never be one~

Just like some people in this world,
they have chances, millions of chances,
and if they appreciate,
they can be that successful,
but if it's in an opposite way,
he can miss a lot of chances..
and it does implies to everyone.....
no one has ever grabbed all the chances awarded, don't they?

and me, I won't miss any chances anymore,
cause they are chances,
truely chances which will always be just once in ur lifetime...

when something dropped by u, u should have held it..bt what if.....

But what if,
the thing we wanted to hold won't be possible to belong to us??
there's a lot of things in our life,
which are meant to be ours.
some passed by us insignificantly,
and some are incredibly important to us.....

Most of the times,
once we know they are such significant,
we will try ur best to hold them...
but there's always an exception,
if the thing u r trying to hold on,
has a zero possibility to be with u,
will u still go for it,
or isit u have to give up by any means? >.<

the longest distance of the world,
is to love someone u cannot love...

the greatest disappointment,
is to give up something u are holding it firmly.

and the greatest happiness,
is either to be with the one who is destined to be with u~
or to get something u have yearned for so long~
and eventually, happy ending.....
should we hope the world to be a better place full with happiness?
i guess we should,
cause that's why world is created,
and why we r living in it~ 

the world u try to hold, means a lot to urself

What we have in this life,
is the word "CHOICE"~

we ought to choose to be a person that we always wanna be,
and we wouldn't choose to be someone we r not that kind of...
bt sometimes, we have no choice,
and then we have to succumbed to something,
which we r unlikely to accept it..
isn't it sad??
or is it things are fated cause we are usually not that capable
to change anything around us?? =(
Sometimes I wondered, whether
u have the power or the right to control ur things,
actually u can,
but sadly not everything...
yes, u can choose to live a stressful life...
u can choose to enjoy ur life..
u can choose to be hardworking,
rather than being lazy..
and u can even choose to love a person..
however, it is hard to choose to be a perfect person,
cause imperfection exists in everyone,
including myself,
including nabi, or even jesus....
and what we can do is just to limit our imperfections,
to be a better better person....
remember it's only better, not the best...

way back to love,
truely, love is the thing that can change someone drastically,
and maybe that's what we call the power of love,
so great and unlimited...
one can tolerate with their loved ones about their imperfections
until they became not their original ownselves...until the rltnship between them can goes on and on..

if the change is in a good manner, It is perfect..
bt it's just temporarily change..
then eventually both of them will end up in a mess....
For me, It is quite hard to meet v someone u like,
or in other way of speaking,
someone u feel he/she is precious to u,
and the one u like have the same feelings towards u..
and it is even harder to find a very
nice rltnship, which is mutualism,
she can help u in ur thoughts and support u,
and inversely, u can do this to her too...=D
if it is like dat, it should be an endless love~

And finally about the main topic,
the world that we r holding now,
and we r living in,
is the most meaningful stuff for us to continue life,
it is meaningful as you are you,u r urself, but not the others....
everyone has their different distinct characteristics,
and these people collectively joined up,
to make up the world,
as one of them,
we should explore,

and feel the truth about the world,
the mighty mysterious world~

so that we feel worthful as a human for the years we r alive..
sounds great?? in this colourful life,
the most important thing is that we can find the best way for us to be meaningful,
whether it's in love or relationship,
significantly, it's ur WORLD !!~

TIme for miracles - by Adam lambert~
Soundtrack from 2012 movie~

The simpler u think, the happier u are..

Simple is beauty,

this familiar sentence is the quote which is often used,

usually when something is made complicated,

what do u actually mean by simple?

life without any colours,

no recreation, and not even any enjoyment?

nope, simple is actually the way u treat your own life,

in particular, not the way u live the life...

Once u think in a simple manner,

u will be happy,or in other words, joyful~
instead of crying all the time,

or blaming the world for giving u such life,

u feel meaningful to be in this world...

to me,
you could be simple,
only if ur mind is that simple too~
truthfully, I've been living my life in a complicated way,
thinking of those negative feelings,
keep reminding myself that,
my world is filled with smthing gloomy happened around me,
bt, it turned out to be the worst way to treat ur life,
life is just about how passionate u r into it,
full with happiness,
and someday u r living without any worries,
then u r simple,
not worrying about financial problems,
not worrying about rltnshp problems,
and more importantly,
not worrying about urself and ur partner..xD

there's some examples in my life,
if a couple is living in a restricted way,
like they respect each other, and they follow everything which is planned..
isn't that too stressful to be with her/him,
if u and ur partner could share anything u want,
the rltnship must be flexible and enjoyable,
rather than u have to worry about a lot of things,
this comes to my mind,
when my best friend, and my another friend(who is not that good)
r experiencing such things,
and even to say me myself, I'm into it last time,
and it's not too late for me to realize,
as I have a simple life to go on,
and to live with no regrets~
happiness will come
only if u r simple,
and to be simple,
It's usually not that simple,
cause it's simpler to say than to do~

Live happily, with the temporary purple world that I have created for u guys~
Never forget to be simple,
cause I hate to be complicated.=P

Came back to my usual Life again~

This is what a perfect sunset picture meant to be~
soothing and calming enough to comfort ur mind and thoughts~
especially with some coconut trees, increasing the mood of the picture,
wasn't it nice?? xP
And it's like what has been planned,
I m back to KL again after few days spending in my hometown,
Fresh enough to prepare again for exams and..studies..

It's true when I thought of what junhong's daddy told us when
he was fetching us for the famous cendol and laksa around..
Life is like driving a car,
We need to stop when we are tired,
just like to hold our steps down when traffic lights turn red..
the resting period ain't stopping u from moving on,
but it's the best way for us to think or consider carefully,
particularly when we face any obstacles..
and whether it will help or cure something bad...
it still depends on how we r going to solve it,
or the way we make an attempt to resolve what has happened...

and more importantly,
he said, when we r driving our car..
we should flexible in our hands when we r turning the stering..
he was trying to tell junhong as jh's hands are still quite inflexible..
bt it does mean something to me,
when it's the time to let go something that does not belong to me,
I seriously have to let go,
Seriously,
cause no matter how I tried to hold on,
or make it as something good for my memories,
and it's just something that has passed by me...
just few words can conclude about us,
"we are not fated to stay 2gether"
since ur heart has gone,
I guess, it supposed to be the time for mine too~

Getting less contact with my sports that i played last time,
my skills about them slowly deteriorate,
just like as time fades,
love or feelings fades,
and skills does fade too sometimes,
I should've understand...
if u wanna maintain some skills in ur life,
u need to practise always,
and...that's how u can always be that goood..
how about maintaining feelings or love???
keeping in touch is an important thing we should do right???
I've heard about a couple,
who can't communicate after a few years,
and finally they broke up,..
sounds sad right??.><
bt seriously, it's hard to hold on relationships,
unless u have very strong determination in it~

Way back to home~

I m on my way to home,

and seriously, it makes me excited and the  feeling is gorgeous..
Living in UCSI,
i feel uncertain,
uncertain about my future and everything,
will they promise me something tat I wanted
by just following what I have been offered?
or is it  necessary for me to spend ~
as money accounts for everything including my future??? =S
There's a lot of uncertainties inside my mind..
whether to give up, or to continue with a little dignity that seems to grow inside myself..
what if someday I am jjusts someone
without any recognition
and without any enjoyment of my life...
I was thinking about enjoying life...
Life, everyone only has one...
rather than being sad and disappointed about the same thing always,
I guess I should walk out from this particular shadow..
a Shadow that has been disrupting my emotions always~
I shall be strong enough,
To get rid of it as soon as possible

Although It seems to be a tough task
i have no choice..
Our love ain't endless...
and it is just as fragile as the glasses..
it could be broken just as easily..
back to the part of enjoying life..
I m going to travel to all diff countries when i have grown up
so..I will have different exposure and..
what u call, LIFE~

Coming back to home, but indeed i did nothing,
except going back to school to watch my band..
they are just like me,
the previous me,
that strive for excellence in any competition..
bt seriously, their standard are dropping,
as always we expected..
bt I just can't do anything...
feel myself quite useless and.><
should we together find a way to cure or save them?
although it is quite hard~~~

listening to -endless love~

My love~
There's only u in my life..
the only thing that's right...
My 1st love..
ur every breath that i take......


ur every step by me...
and I~~~~
i want to share all my loveeee v uuu
no one else will do~~^^
and ur eyes 






they tell me how much u care..
u will always be my endless lovE

Secret ~

Secret...
sometimes makes us curious,
bt it may be fatal to someone,
as the secret might be a flaw to him,
esp a secret that is never revealed..
and is kept aside all the time...




Have u ever wondered how much secret is there in this world??.
The amount is uncountable,
but everyone has their own secrets..

as their own privacies..

What about my secret? =)
as I said it is my privacies, so it won't be revealed so easily...xP
Last night, my roommate introduced me a lot of songs,
and the songs are great,
especially those korean songs which are just that touching..
I never thought that i would like Korean songs some day,
bt it somehow happens..

Oops, i think i hve gone away from my main topic,
so let's just change another topic..
today me and my roommates talked about..
hw snakes and chicken reproduce..
have u ever thought of that??..xP
cause seriously,
when u discuss about it,
u will a lot of strange things and...ambiguity..
haha, and finally we found out thru google search,
and eventually, they are discovered to be
having internal fertilization..=D
It sounds peculiar, cause suddenly,
we just talked about dat..
it's funny right??.xP


That's all for today, secret
has nothing much to talk about..
so just keep others secret.
just like how the cat asked the dog to do...
haha....

-Introducing a song-  No air- Jordin Sparks/ Glee cAst

Change~

What do you mean by a change?
A change in attitude?..a change in personality?..
change in hairstyle, or a change in thoughts....
When u face something different, you would change..
when u gonna adapt to a different environment, or different things..
but whether to a better or a worse person,
no one would ever know,
it depends on urself....
you should have see changes in other people,
no matter he's ur best friend,
someone u really care about..

or anyone.....
it does matter to u..
when u really don't like his/her change...
or u will feel nice, if he/she change to a better person..

I wonder if the world never exists such word,
you wouldn't be a mature person,
cause u have changed,
thru' different kind of obstacles.
or situations..
and eventually u change....
but it does make sense that change often happens
when a person is forced to the edge..
he couldn't continue with his own style
and somehow, he gotta change to fit into this community - a community that is fast paced...

Now is the matter of changing to a better person or the opposite..
Once you have changed, sometimes it is hard to reverse it..
cause the stuff that cause u to change must be that significant..
Is anyone in this world capable of knwing about his change?

Not actually..
Most of the time, it's our friends and our family that..
reminds us of our change...

and u barely can recognize it urself..
that's why..u dunno whether it  is good or bad..

personal outlook change is quite observable..
but inner change is hardly identified...
who knws if someday a good person change into a mad one???.xP
maybe it is because he/she is too stressful of being good for a long time?
and he/she gonna explode after it...
at least i knw...
I m a happy-go-lucky one..
not too desiring to be good..
and not too hoping to be that bad..
that's why I m always neutral..
more importantly, I enjoyed it,
as it brings me happiness...=D

Introducing a song..-Change- by taylor swift..

I wonder if I ever in this kind of night..damn attractive~

Opposite direction, she chose north,bt i chose south

here's mE!!!  again it's blogging time,
and then i don't wanna waste any time..
just wanna write down what m i thinking..

yes and I am heading to the south..
which I have to do so,
cause I have no choice,
Heading to south will make one among both of us happy.....
either she or me..? I guess it's she....
and would u wonder anyone saying matrics is fun?
i guess she is the only one...
cause...she had fun there....
knw a lot of friends and..a lot of fun..........

That's all, all I wanna say about her is just like dat..
and I m going to start a new chapter in my life...
without her and, just like her,
happy and ignoring anything about her...
It's a day which I stay in this hostel for whole day long,
playing games, studying, and listening to songs,
blogging, washing clothes, and more daily activities..
nothing special today, so I guess i don't have to speak so much..
about my life...
it's boring, or it's fun??
I choose - boring....

oh ya, i should emphasize on something,
today i suddenly feel like a name is perfect,
and i would name my daughter the name if I had one daughter..
the name is "Clover"
don't u feel it's nice and....attractive??.xP
and...it's just something i suddenly thought of when i was eating lunch..
and reasons?..I myself oso dunno..=D

Now i m listening to this song..
I remember what u wore on the 1st day
U came into my life and I tot Heyyyyy
So maybe it's true.....
that I can't live without u..
and maybe two...
is better than one..
and there's so much time...
to figure out the rest of my life..
and u've already got me coming undone...
Two..is better than one....!!!!!!!
which implies that..with u is better than without u..=)
and this is the song i wanna give u...
from deep down inside my heart..=)
hope u and I have our own happy life..
So long......

- Blogged by chinLiang OOn accompanied by Two is better than one -

I wonder if i ever regret...=S

Another day which i seem to like blogging...
and i continue blogging, as I have a lot of things to tell...
and i wish there's someone listening to me...
and this blog always do listen to me....=D

There are a lot of people walking by me days and days..
and...they are exactly different,physically and mentally??
which always make them distinct and...special.....
Living in this world,
I usually do not realize how much am I significant to this world and to everyone..
bt as long as I can do the right things and satisfy with wad I did...
everything can be counted as the right thing to do..

cause I won't regret after doing the things I wanted to...
and then, there are a lot of things happening around me..
bt I always feel wad I do..does not mean anything..
when I m doing something without ur presence...
it means I actually did nothing........
cause u crossed my mind again..and again...........
again and again.........

And u r living happier and happier...
with ur photos, I can feel it..
but I never knw wad I feel..
there's an obvious border line between us...
just like, the sea that seperates us....
cause...this is what u call....the end..
just I never attempt to accept it..
with full courage?.or with a lil jealousy??...aiKzZz...
tell me just forget about it, chinliang.....
could u do that??..
I WOULD, IF I REALLY COULD~
really....
bt i just can't......

Is it love is just about hoping the one u like to be happy
and to have her own life with full enjoyment without u??.
no, u won't hope for that!!!!!! u won't!!!!!!!!!!!!
cause, u want her to be happy
because of urself, and again, urself!!!!!!!

that's exactly what I m thinking.....
and wad I m sad about?...
I tried...i barely tried...
and obviously i barely succeed...
can I be awarded a chance, or an opportunity?
cause u r just spinning around my head..
as always u did......

that's what I regret..and i really do regret...

- Regret - ChinLiang Oon

Enjoy??!! the longest "night market" in cheras

Today is a day somehow u can call it a boring day~
But it's finally filled with something when it comes to the very short night..
Guess it's because I have walked the nearby night market with friends..
It's described as the longest market in Malaysia at night,
and it's really quite long..
Let me desribe the length, it's like u walk from Jit Sin to the traffic light?..
get it??..xP

It's a day which I'm not that covered by much of my bad emotional feelings
So it can counted as a fine and good day~

Wanna knw about my feelings after i came KL.?
it's more on wad i feel something disappearing from my life...
something is missing out from my life..
friends? family?....i realized that..
Even though u r strong enuf to stay alone ouside..
u will still miss ur previous things, cause the relationship u have built..
never break, and it's like a wall...tall and firm...=)
u wouldn't knw when u try to find someone u usually find,
bt u feel that there's a long long distance between u and him/her..
just try to figure it out...it's sad..TT

The hostel which I live in,
more particularly the off-campus provided by the jpa sponsorship,
is quite nice and it's full with equipments and facilities,
just that,
the hostel is not occupied by many of us who 1stly included in this roomlist..
cause some of them might be going home daily,
cause their houses are nearby in cheras..
These days, we have been trying to figure out what is the cheapest manner
so that we can save up some money,
or in the other way of speaking, spend money just inside the amount given...
bt around us we jst can find a lot of lil restaurant
providing economic rice and chicken rice...
that's what i ate for almost these few days..
and normally, we don't call for drinks or any beverages..
strange right?..xP this is how my life is..=)

And that's all for today??
It's quite late and i have classes the next day on 0800am...
So just let me have a rest and..
let's close this post...
by a recommendation of song...

- Listening to - Bleeding love sang by Leona Lewis-