I was suddenly thinking of blogging...so that I can tell anything to this particular blog..
and it helps to relieve my feelings..when I feel bored....
and when I am helpless....=)
Guess what, I have been in this world for 17 years full...
heading towards my tertiary education...
Living a healthy life, though there's just something missing out there...
something that often run across my mind and knocked me down emotionally....
Everyone who knws me well knw what m i talking about...
it's about...my past relationship....
and...seriously, I am still finding ways to put everything down...
every single thing about her and..more importantly, my feelings....
Sometimes I wondered, was it necessary for someone to be in love with someone...
No, it's not..it's just that the person is trying to rely on someone to share his things..
and to help making himself joyful......that's why he/she is in love...
I need someone to rely on currently..and would that be u???...I always ask myself...
and it wouldn't be.....cause....
u r already nowhere bt just inside my heart....
I guess I'm only the one who remembers...about everything...
Since when I started to collapse,
it's when I started to miss out everything between us..
Without any contacts,and even without any news about u...
leaving behind,
ur footsteps, and the voice I can barely recall...
UR voice will only be around me...In the year be4 2011..
but not now....=(
Now I can feel that quotes about..
"It's hard to be frens after break-up"
and it's commonly true..especially between us.....
Bt seriously, I MISS U~ regardless of anything..
Regarding to what I've done today,
I stared at a certain view for a very very long time....
And. I was at the position for almost like...half an hour...
I know what I see is only a very tiny part of this world but....
When I think deeply, it's actually these parts of world which make up my life...
Every single fren..every single memory.........
and even every single word....comes out from any person...
I realized it when I have to adapt to my new life..
alone with no other previous best friends....=(
Getting more and more to know this community..
it's sometimes hard to get everything like what u want...
u have to suit urself into it..and that's make everything hard.....
Pure life and pure friendS?? I think that will just exist in primary and secondary..
It's pretty hard now...=(
I'm not gonna make myself regret for anything in this world anymore...
because I've done something regretful,
which is...to lose you in my life..
and I realized that I couldn't afford that..
I need a very long time to forget u....
so that, u r no longer in my dream
neither in my heart~
~The end~ Listening to the song - "Back to December-Taylor Swift"
