only u knw how suffering u are, and how painful it is

yes, today is just that simple,
only u know how suffering u are,
or  u can say that's how u knw urself better,
be sincere of what has happened with u,
be courageous enuf to face ur weaknesses...

only urself knw it deeply inside,
what are u thinking,
and how will u do,

according to different situation,
and....that's all..........
almost finished my biology assignment,
and I have been sleeping late for consecutive 2 days..
time for me to sleep early..=)

I hope bubbles won't break when they collide

There's always something which are meant to be..
and more importantly,
I wanna express the main point...
some of the things around us are fated....
cause u have to follow and accept ur faith...

just like the bubbles,

when they collide..

they will surely break...

and they break incredibly nice...

I get this idea when I stare at the bubbles..

the bubbles are attractive, seriously they are charming...

why would they always break when they collide..

and if they remain the same,

it would be beautiful,

but this is the nature.......

the awesome nature which we used to live in...

and it is just can't be changed...

Bubbles,

they are fragile...

they are not like us in life...

although they are colourful

they can't choose but to break..

but we can,

to gain whatever we want....

and to live whatever life u yearn for.....

be courageous to choose what u want...

and u won't regret...dude......

(specially for someone around me)

perhaps this example is not that suitable....

but i just wanna emphasize on that....

live ur life...cause it's urs.....

There are a lot of things,

only when it passed us, we used to be regretful....

and the regret in u,

can hardly be overcomed....

whether it is the passer by,

or it will mean a lot to u..

depends on how u r flexible and mature in ur mind....

again, talking about the bubbles....

i use them as my blog today..

because i feel they are beautiful..

and no other reasons...

it's just they are beautiful....

Looking through the window in my condo..

yes,

I finally found someone like me...

feeling the emptiness..

when u look at the cars on the road...

or when u listen to the noise of the city.....

even when u try to find someone interesting around ur eyesight...

there's always a space which is empty..

an empty space which belongs to urself....

whether how the emptiness fit inside u,

it all depends on...

what u have gone through...

and the sadness which always live...

inside ur deepest site of ur heart.....

No one will always be happy,

but only with sadness...

both of them weave to make ur life interesting..

and just that colourful...

like the bubbles before breaking..=)

enjoyyy...ur life.....

ur colourful life........

discrimination and pretentious

Being discriminative is quite scary..
especially when someone looks down at u..
u can't resist,
because u have ur weaknesses..
and sometimes,
u feel insulted because of that..


when u r looked down..
sometimes, 
u might not realize...
discrimination happens,
when there's difference in thoughts...
when there's difference in status,
or difference in potential, and even attitude...


a very obvious discrimination,
can be found easily in a person's eyes..
cause they have told everything 


pretentious,
is about how pretending the person is,
when he is encountering a situation...
People used to discriminate,
cause they never look into others' good things..
but when u are able to look at them,
u are better than those who discriminate...


Being pretentious,
is one of the thing i hate the most...
what is the use of being pretentious,
to achieve ur objective?
or to get someone to trust at u,
even u r trying to do something bad..
cause when u r sincere enough,
the pretentious crap on u should be taken off..
cause it never be useful,
when it comes to friendship........
truely.......
true friends are the ones that u should believe,
u should trust them..
and even put ur words on them..
cause they knw u well,
and they won't talk about u,
especially about ur bad things behind u...


there's something that i should approve when 
i saw one thing on facebook today..
real friends stab u from ur front
isn't it true..
if they don't care about u,
they won't even tell where ur weaknesses are...
and won't even laugh at u..

Fitting in the crowd, yet there's still loneliness

Today might be an important day for the jit sin band..
they are having a competition and.it seems important for them to win this..
so they advance into the national comp..
or what....
anything, i have to bless them here.....
they are having compett right now,
while I am away from penang, and I'm enclosed in this uni..
with stupid replacement classes..
and transportation problem..
but, i promise i will go for national compttt!!!..
i promise.......

thinking of being direct today..
as........being indirect sounds troublesome...
although it brings a lot of meaning if i write indirectly..

Kinda miss those days when I'm in high school.......
being with best friends and a lot of people,
being in the greatest society on earth..
when comptt goes on,
I m just feeling when I'm inside of it.
nervous and...insisting to stay calm...
is every thing that everyone needs...
and I have been thru it......
remembering those days when I 1st joined the band..
because of my friend, FM,
and because of everything,
I have been brought to the society..
growing up,
by taking all sort of experiences...
and that kind of spirit builds a spirit inside me,
in which those days are surely not forgotten forever...


esp when I was as black as charcoal......^^
the time will never turn back to me anymore..
once u walked..
wad u left is only footsteps
and memories.........
whether the footsteps will be blown away
or it will fade?..depends on how deep those footsteps u have left behind......
and how meaningful the memories are......


it's true..life passes so quickly...
as fast as a lightning?...
until u can't stop them.......
seriously,
if time can be stopped one day....
and u have ur last few hours..
wad will u do 1st?
wad will come into ur mind 1st?
who will come into ur mind then?
have u ever thought of that......
I have been thinking of that so seriously,
but it turned out with no answers...........
cause i can't even figure out them.........
indeed,     I COULDN'T
I COULDN'T....................


the sunset is beautiful,
but it could be forgotten,
but scenarios and picture in my mind,
although it's just important to me,
selfishly, they are just as beautiful as the sunset..........
as long as i stay...
i will keep them as mine.....                                        
but would u??


the sky is blue,
and so do my heart..
with a little of lonelinesssssssss
and a little of depression...... 

I had a chance, but equally i had no chance tooo~

There's a great thing about this,
having a chance, bt actually u don't have...
It's kinda strange to get this feeling,
especially when u seem to have the opportunity to be taken~

A great chance,
bt u might get a great disappointment,
just like throwing a dice,
u may have 2 different possibilities,
BIG,
or SMALL~
and it's just two,
it can never be one~

Just like some people in this world,
they have chances, millions of chances,
and if they appreciate,
they can be that successful,
but if it's in an opposite way,
he can miss a lot of chances..
and it does implies to everyone.....
no one has ever grabbed all the chances awarded, don't they?

and me, I won't miss any chances anymore,
cause they are chances,
truely chances which will always be just once in ur lifetime...

when something dropped by u, u should have held it..bt what if.....

But what if,
the thing we wanted to hold won't be possible to belong to us??
there's a lot of things in our life,
which are meant to be ours.
some passed by us insignificantly,
and some are incredibly important to us.....

Most of the times,
once we know they are such significant,
we will try ur best to hold them...
but there's always an exception,
if the thing u r trying to hold on,
has a zero possibility to be with u,
will u still go for it,
or isit u have to give up by any means? >.<

the longest distance of the world,
is to love someone u cannot love...

the greatest disappointment,
is to give up something u are holding it firmly.

and the greatest happiness,
is either to be with the one who is destined to be with u~
or to get something u have yearned for so long~
and eventually, happy ending.....
should we hope the world to be a better place full with happiness?
i guess we should,
cause that's why world is created,
and why we r living in it~ 

the world u try to hold, means a lot to urself

What we have in this life,
is the word "CHOICE"~

we ought to choose to be a person that we always wanna be,
and we wouldn't choose to be someone we r not that kind of...
bt sometimes, we have no choice,
and then we have to succumbed to something,
which we r unlikely to accept it..
isn't it sad??
or is it things are fated cause we are usually not that capable
to change anything around us?? =(
Sometimes I wondered, whether
u have the power or the right to control ur things,
actually u can,
but sadly not everything...
yes, u can choose to live a stressful life...
u can choose to enjoy ur life..
u can choose to be hardworking,
rather than being lazy..
and u can even choose to love a person..
however, it is hard to choose to be a perfect person,
cause imperfection exists in everyone,
including myself,
including nabi, or even jesus....
and what we can do is just to limit our imperfections,
to be a better better person....
remember it's only better, not the best...

way back to love,
truely, love is the thing that can change someone drastically,
and maybe that's what we call the power of love,
so great and unlimited...
one can tolerate with their loved ones about their imperfections
until they became not their original ownselves...until the rltnship between them can goes on and on..

if the change is in a good manner, It is perfect..
bt it's just temporarily change..
then eventually both of them will end up in a mess....
For me, It is quite hard to meet v someone u like,
or in other way of speaking,
someone u feel he/she is precious to u,
and the one u like have the same feelings towards u..
and it is even harder to find a very
nice rltnship, which is mutualism,
she can help u in ur thoughts and support u,
and inversely, u can do this to her too...=D
if it is like dat, it should be an endless love~

And finally about the main topic,
the world that we r holding now,
and we r living in,
is the most meaningful stuff for us to continue life,
it is meaningful as you are you,u r urself, but not the others....
everyone has their different distinct characteristics,
and these people collectively joined up,
to make up the world,
as one of them,
we should explore,

and feel the truth about the world,
the mighty mysterious world~

so that we feel worthful as a human for the years we r alive..
sounds great?? in this colourful life,
the most important thing is that we can find the best way for us to be meaningful,
whether it's in love or relationship,
significantly, it's ur WORLD !!~

TIme for miracles - by Adam lambert~
Soundtrack from 2012 movie~

The simpler u think, the happier u are..

Simple is beauty,

this familiar sentence is the quote which is often used,

usually when something is made complicated,

what do u actually mean by simple?

life without any colours,

no recreation, and not even any enjoyment?

nope, simple is actually the way u treat your own life,

in particular, not the way u live the life...

Once u think in a simple manner,

u will be happy,or in other words, joyful~
instead of crying all the time,

or blaming the world for giving u such life,

u feel meaningful to be in this world...

to me,
you could be simple,
only if ur mind is that simple too~
truthfully, I've been living my life in a complicated way,
thinking of those negative feelings,
keep reminding myself that,
my world is filled with smthing gloomy happened around me,
bt, it turned out to be the worst way to treat ur life,
life is just about how passionate u r into it,
full with happiness,
and someday u r living without any worries,
then u r simple,
not worrying about financial problems,
not worrying about rltnshp problems,
and more importantly,
not worrying about urself and ur partner..xD

there's some examples in my life,
if a couple is living in a restricted way,
like they respect each other, and they follow everything which is planned..
isn't that too stressful to be with her/him,
if u and ur partner could share anything u want,
the rltnship must be flexible and enjoyable,
rather than u have to worry about a lot of things,
this comes to my mind,
when my best friend, and my another friend(who is not that good)
r experiencing such things,
and even to say me myself, I'm into it last time,
and it's not too late for me to realize,
as I have a simple life to go on,
and to live with no regrets~
happiness will come
only if u r simple,
and to be simple,
It's usually not that simple,
cause it's simpler to say than to do~

Live happily, with the temporary purple world that I have created for u guys~
Never forget to be simple,
cause I hate to be complicated.=P