寂寞，还是快乐？

我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
其实连想你都是种残酷切磋
所以，留不住回忆的我决定放手了
何苦执着并在乎得不到的温柔？

生活在茫茫人海中，
不知不觉地感觉到了一种寂寞
一种说不出的孤寂
走在人群中，
却比不上自己静静停下来
遥望着一片属于自己的天空
寂寞不是因为失去了朋友
而是失去了会去了解你的人
身边的新朋友一直都在增加
却和你有不同的信念
不同的想法，不同的观点
就说到这里吧，

那么感伤的话说了就算
开心的话题也总要有的
乐观地看待一切事情，我还在学习呢
其实除了学会了如何面对孤寂
原来也知道了快乐的定义
一个简单的事情是可以让你多么快乐的
即使是请别人一杯饮料
因为诚恳，因为真心
因为这样，人生才会拥有感动，拥有快乐
要真正的快乐其实还真不简单
发自内心的快乐更是难了
不是吗？

最近的压力减少了许多，
考试虽然接近了，却意味着回家的喜悦
好久没回家了，开始想家了呢 =）
想着这三个星期回家后应该做些什么呢？
当然是自己逛街，买一些好的东西，
每天逍遥自在的睡到自然醒，
回家看一下妈妈，
还有打game.......
看看老朋友，打羽球啦，
最重要的还是唱歌，
对吗？ 佩琦，忆菱，玮任

天啊，4点了，
该去做功课咯，
寂寞还是快乐呢？〉〈
有时候真搞不懂

A night with stars..

I like to walk under the stars,
and think beyond these stars...
while I am standing on the wake of devastation...
when I am waiting on the edge of the unknown,
I wish to walk in serenity, under this beautiful sky...
just because it is calm enough,
to act against my messed-up mind

Things come around us unexpectedly,
someday u might be happy,
but sometimes u might be just down as well.....

While u r in this world, u can't expect everything
to be just fit into what u want...
they always act differently, in words, oppositely.....
Can I just control things around me?
nope, they just won't listen to u...
guess they have no ears....

I felt emptiness while walking down at the condo.
a few times after lunch,
No, this time the emptiness is not because of u,
it's because it's really something missing out.....
like, an organ is missing from ur body?
or like a house without a kitchen?
or u can say, a life without salt?
it is something important for sure,
but, u just can't say or describe how important it is,
u knw deep down in ur heart, it is IMPORTANT~

I just posted in facebook wall,
sometimes u knw which are ur true friends,
and which are not,
certainly...
birds of the same feather flock together,
when u meet ur true friends, u will feel some kind of warmth..
it cannot be replaced by anything further.....
but surely one will only have few real real friends in life,
not more than 10 who really really understand u..

what for having so many?
5 is already more than enough~
don't u think so?

by the way,
do you ever feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failures all you've known....
I will just remember the sadness and frustration...
let it go .....
Oh, just let it go.....
and I did it.......
It's not hard, just that I needed some time,..
actually is a lot of time....
to free myself from something binding on me for such a long period...
yeah, let it go,
that's the real way~ =)

I thought it was never late, So I didn even rush it~

Yesterday was a tiring day,
went whole day long with a few new housemates
to midvalley for harry potter 7......
it was fascinating indeed,
just that i'm not one of its fans..
by the way,
there are some questions...
why voldermolt die so easily,
and emma looks so gorgeous even after 19 years in movie?..
That's some parts i think quite funny..=)

sometimes u will wonder,
why is there something u need to rush before it's too late,
or u just take them slowly,
by the way....does it matter whether u take time?
It doesn't matter,
if it is really important to u.........

Few days ago, went out to see jspo competition
just in bukit jalil,
and went out together with friends..
someone is right,
memories are always the greatest thing on earth,
when something has passed by u,
the thing u can only look back,
and stay with u,
is memories,..
and memories are always the important events around u.....
Long time din hang out with friends like this time,
although it is super tiring, it sounds extraordinary~
We searched for taxi at night time 11 something,
staying in a lame hostel,
with 5 in a room with only 2 single beds...
guess, I never felt like dat before...
and eating some dimsums which are really special...
the dimsums are really tasty......

Peichi is right,
being optimistic is the main part of every life...
We should be optimistic,
even with some weaknesses in ourselves....
Even ppl may think u r not the best,
u r always the best for urself.....
and u are the special one,
no one can replace u haha......
so don't think so much, just live =D

way back to the part of jspo,
they did very well, outstanding performance,
with only few mistakes,
if the drill is better,
and drum major catch every high throw,
we might be able to win fatimah and go into top 4...
being top 5 is a great history....
maybe it doesn't sounds great for asma or others,
it sounds great for our own team,
cause it's kinda touching to listen back to ur own band,
performing in world stage~
I was impressed, as usual, by sultanah asma, they seems to be perfect...
but seriously disagree with st.john~ they are just... nothing......
just with colour guards~
in other words, i was stunned by Sultan abdul hamid,
they are outstanding too =D
and fatimah, as always, same dancing, same pattern.......
JSPO strive for ur best in WORLD marching band competition~

Enjoy listening to a song recently,
Lying here with you so close to me,
it's hard to fight these feelings when it feel so hard to breathe
caught up in this moment,
caught up in your smile..
I seldom opened up to anyone..
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms..
Why do we need to rush this,
just take it slow...

I tried to take it slow,
with all the might i have.....
but seriously I messed it up,
so what,
It is the fate which i can't change at all right?......xP
Got these feelings when i m listening to Just a kiss-  lady antebellum...

如果这就是爱情

你做了选择 对的错的
我只能承认 心是痛的
怀疑你舍得
我被伤的那么深
就放声哭了 何必再强忍


我没有选择 我不再完整
原来最后的吻 如此冰冷
你只能默认 我要被割舍
眼看着 你走了

如果这不是结局
如果我还爱你
如果我愿相信
你就是唯一

如果你听到这里
如果你依然放弃
那这就是爱情
 我难以抗拒

*如果这就是爱情
本来就不公平
你不需要讲理
我可以离去
如果我成全了你
如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清
是我证明 我爱你

灰色的天空 无法猜透
多余的眼泪 无法挽留
什么都牵动 感觉真的好脆弱
被呵护的人 原来不是我我不要你走 我不想放手
却又不能够奢求
同情的温柔
你可以自由 我愿意承受
把昨天 留给我

Time

Time,
goes on and on,
click, click, click.....

though it never tell how love lasts,
just that, time makes me realize
that I had fallen deeply with u before.....

It's right....when it has to be ended,
it should be...

just like something useless,

u should have dumped it,
far far away right?..
u won't have any reasons to take it back,

even the slight looking back at it...it won't cause much difference.


when time goes,
it can never turn back,
even a single second on this earth...
even a single moment in ur life..
sometimes,
life is without take two..
I think I was being too dependent on u,
when u always crossed my mind,
occasionally.......
until I understand,
learning to let go,
always let myself learn more,
more than wad I have expected...

People tend not to admit when they don't want to,
they will find excuses, reasons,
to cover the truth...
that's why,
we never wake up from the truth sometimes,
until someday we experienced it ourselves,
only that comes into our mind...
then we will change.....

Like me, when love fades,
i was trying to hold on,
I knw it was fading...
maybe keep holding on will make myself feel better...
but Indeed, when she's letting go,
she knw she never pull it back again...
love needs both side, both side pulling,
but not too tense, not too stressful......
and it hurts when u must let go,
someone u love the most..
since she wanted to

I guess,
this is why everyone is still learning,
learning throughout our lives,
to be a better person,
cause u r never a nobody.... =)

U always lose when ur appearance lose others..

Nothing much to say about this,
with not a very good appearance,
u always lose..=(
and that has always been ur faith,
cause u cant change it by any means.
so just satisfy with it and live happily....

Ignore how people look at u...
cause even how ugly u r,
there's still dignity in u..
still U r worth to be in this world..
this world is always that unfair...
but, It can be fair in ur mind..=)

Apparently, I don't mean anything to u..

Yea, he's right..
which I feel after he suddenly asked me,
If any day,
u r with someone who is good or who is extremely bad..
will I be jealous about him and...try to ...bring up ur attention to me?..
no I won't....
cause apparently, I don't mean anything to u anymore..
maybe I should go and congratz u..
or maybe I should stand stilll watching u....
thinking about what had happened..
and watch u to disappear from the place  i can still look at u....

I dunno whether u will always be my love..
but....temporarily, u r still the one.
but i dunno what will I do..
It has always been a question mark now....
I have been wrong for these few months...
love should be in 2 ways..
but even 1 way,  It can still be the greatest love..
as long as u are willing to give...
to sacrifice....for her/him...
and love has always been the greatest thing on earth..
that can touch anyone,
or in other cases, being the most meaningful thing on earth.....

There has been a question appointed on me,
that is when one of my fren said..
try to look at a thing/view from ur current position...
and walk to the right and see it again....
the things u see is always different,
although it is still the same thing....
there's many different opinion on a thing....
never a right view or a wrong view...
but as long as u can justify urself in a fair manner.
and u r not doing anything wrong....
u are always right.......

Oops getting emo again....
i guess I shouldn't write this so suddenly..
....it should be the fault of my roommate...
suddenly ask me such things...=(

When the world ends, what is the last thing u wanna do?

have not been writing blog for several days..
And I guess today I have to write something,
in which to find out an answer..
that is asked by my best friend's gf to her..
and I wonder if someone question me such thing..

when the world ends,
what is the last thing U wanna do..
for me,
I wanna take a tour to every part of the world....
that has always been my wish,
but whether is alone or is with my partner.
it depends on my future...

How about u?..
have all of u thought about what u should u do....
when world ends...
Did u regret about something u have done wrong..
when u are still in this space?.
or did u feel regret for not doing something
that u always wanted to...

Be decisive...
in what u are going to do...
cause in such moment...
u can find out what means
to u the most.....
if u cant find out this simple answer..
there must be something wrong somewhere.....
that's just the matter of time for u to find out..
so why don't u think of that earlier..

And my friend told me about a cute story
to make her bf say I love u to her.
although i dunno why...
but just wanna tell here..
There's 2 person..
if 1 named I don't love u, and one named I love u...
who will be left behind if I don't love u has gone..
haha..and finally she is successful..
I have always been looking good at them..
cause their relationship is just that free...
not restricted by any promise anything...
that's how trust takes place in both of them....
To me, a free relationship can be forever,
cause when both of them are sincere
even though there can be quarrel between them..
they can still stay strong...

cause they hold a strong relationship initially,
which is free and considerate....
I hope I m like her or him...
but maybe I need to wait..>.<
it's the matter of time again...
time really counts for many things around us..
If someone can stop time,
I wonder how  he will manage his time..
to accomplish something meaningful in his life..

Today went to watch transformers 3 = dark of the moon
It's supremely nice...
and it was great to me,
although some of them said that the storyline is quite boring..
It's gorgeous.
anyway..that's all.
with a little optimus photo..